-this is an honest space and i am being honestly vulnerable-

it has not been as well as i would like it to be 

the 2 week old, slow-progressing, blighting wound on my knee obstructs me from

doing any form of exercise; running / swimming / pilates 

basically things that involve bending your knee / getting into contact with is out  

okay that's not the real reason why i'm upset

i've just been keeping everything in 

and exercising is a good way to let things out

L O R D

i need to let it out.

i can't remember… anything

the last meaningful physical embrace, the last time i ate without worrying, 

last time i loved another with my whole heart. my journey. i am not understanding...

what the hell is going on with my journey?! Lord, amidst the pain and

blind hand-holding walk with you, where has my heart gone

show me it's safe